I keep debating on why I might want to meet someone to enjoy my days with.
I know I want someone for the physical aspect. Someone I can please and in return please me to satisfy my needs. I am after all a succubus. My demands are high in this area. Very high.
But I debate on whether I want someone there for the emotional aspect.
I don’t know. Sure, I’d love someone to share my day with and have a bond but I’ve been enjoying this feeling of solitude a lot. It’s not a bad solitude. It’s a reassuring one.
But then again, maybe that’s why for the past 3 relationships I’ve attempted, they have been long distance. Because I only have to deal with that extreme closeness for short periods of time and can expect them.
Knowing the ins and outs of long distance relationships makes me only want to pursue those when I want a relationship.
Perhaps I should look for similar qualities in a relationship that can happen here. But how do I put “hey so I want to have sex all the fucking time with you but you’re also going to have to give me my space to let me do whatever by myself but don’t think that I’m cheating on you.”
Shit’s difficult. But I’m starting to feel a little bit lonely.